During the month of April, I came across an article on Yahoo about a Miami high school Valedictorian facing deportation. She was an undocumented and had been living in the U.S. for nearly 14 years.

However, apparently her case has been deferred two years and thus she is able to stay another two years even though she technically broke the law. Strange ways the government works.

I understand her situation and sympathize for her but what I CANNOT and WILL NOT sympathize is how the people close to her use her accomplishments and possibly future situations as a tactic to win over people’s hearts. Ugh, for the love of getting anything done, stop thinking with your emotions! It absolutely pisses me off because there have been other cases where I live, not dealing with teenagers or anyone smart but they were not given a fighting chance and deported as soon as possible.

Why should we give her a break? It’s because she’s smart, right? So you’re saying, we should only allow those who are smart to stay in the country? Is that the message you want to send to people when the country we live in promotes EQUALITY for all? She wants to become a citizen so why don’t we let her go through the process of becoming one instead of giving her an easy way out.

It’s been a bit hard to enjoy this summer without feeling guilty and lazy. *sigh.

Oh gosh. I rushed to work today since I woke up late (7:38AM, I work at 8AM). I didn’t get time to pack anything to eat but as a surprise, M traveled all the way to my workplace and brought me some food. <3 It was so sweet! 

He kept texting me questions, asking how exactly does one get to my workplace and what building I work in. I was suspicious but M knows how to play it off like always. I really appreciated it and was so happy. 

Little things like that can make you smile for hours ( in your heart, mind and physically).

You know what that means? A lot of thinking.

Hard work and determination is the key to success, no matter how long it takes.

What are some great reads you can recommend? 

I’m officially done with this semester yet I don’t feel like I accomplished anything. In that sense, I suppose I need school to feel like I’m doing something. I need to get over that aspect of my life because when I finally finish, what will I have to live for?

At Best Buy, I ran into the librarian from my high school the other day and it was a nice chat. He asked me what I was doing with my life and I couldn’t really say what I was going to do. I’ve been thinking about being a Pharmacist or a Physician but have been trying to see whether or not I’d be okay with staying in school for years to come. It got me thinking. I’ve been out of high school for 2 years now but I haven’t done much. I’ve been using college as an excuse for being tired and needing to sleep when in reality, college has just made me lazy. *Sigh. I need to get off that lazy horse. 

This summer, I want to volunteer and exercise more. I don’t want to stay inside browsing the internet, wishing my life were more exciting. I don’t want to be jealous of all these other people accomplishing things and wishing I was them. There is no shame in taking a day off to yourself and just winding down but there is shame in being lazy and doing nothing to get yourself out of that situation.

note: I really need a new bed because my back has been hurting every morning I wake up. =(

The BF is so ready to hit summer but I’m not! The semester isn’t over yet buddy! You may have it easy but I don’t! I hate it so much and he doesn’t understand why I got so much shit to do and can’t hang out with him and eventually just blames me.

UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

MAN UP, YOU SUPPOSED MAN.

Throughout my entire life I had always thought of being a teacher. I felt it was a safe route but as I grew older and older I realized it wasn’t my calling. As much as everyone told me I could be a great teacher, it just didn’t feel right. I took a Career test and it told me I would be good in International Business. However, now that I’m in Business (for an Accounting major), all I can feel is looming regret and dark days ahead. As much as I find learning about it interesting, that’s all it is to me: learning!

I love to learn and so choosing a career out of it is hard because I love everything. I had to really think about what I want to do. I had recently thought of becoming a Pharmacist, Doctor, etc. I know people will think of me as fickle because I can’t seem to stick to one career but this will impact the rest of my life! So I have to make sure I’m fickle enough to pick a good career.

They disappeared out of my life for approximately one week. I looked everywhere and couldn’t find it. So the other day while I was pulling out my Third Shift permit for work, I found it! I had been yelling and getting frustrated because I couldn’t listen to lectures for homework and little did I know… it was with me the whole time! I feel silly.

Gosh, I’m hungry right now too. I had been trying to fix the laptop I’m currently on and I was stuck for a good while. Until, one day I came across something online. I used a recovery wizard on the laptop and it’s in tip top condition so the kids aren’t constantly calling me wondering when the heck am I going to finish it. Whew! Since that’s out of my way… I’m back to dieting and exercising. 

Boiled Chicken (Skinless)
Boiled Eggs/Scrambled Eggs
Banana
Plain Yogurt with Fruit
Fiber/Protein Cereal = Kashi, Shredded Wheat

At least 30 minutes of cardio a day or every other day.

As I was starving and waiting to board the bus, I saw Maipa and Bao. Gosh it’s been so long since I’ve seen regular faces. We talked about current events and exams and it felt nice. You know why? I talked with someone other than M. Although M and I are like BEST FRIENDS, there’s always room for others. That’s what a lot of people in relationships forget: you have to have your own separate life!